Fighting like a girl for my life!
When you have no other options but to fight for your life.
Before Cancer
Where it all began: Late last year I was diagnosed with Invasive Ductal Carcinoma after feeling a pea sized lump in my left breast. I went in three months later and had a mammogram to confirm my ultrasound performed the day before. The thought of cancer is scary, especially when you just watched your grandmother not even 3 months prior slowly die from secondary brain cancer. Holding her hand through that experience and her not remembering who you are or who her children are was devastating and life changing. All I could really think about was when you have no other options but to fight for your life.
Right before surgery to remove my cancer
Where I am now: The depression has deepened and thoughts of me dying have shook me to the core. My children need me, they need their mother to be strong and fight for them. I also need to fight for myself. No one wants cancer, no one wants to induce pain to their bodies that they can't control no matter what. I am sore, tired and cannot seem to concentrate worth anything these days.
Me now
Breaking the mold: My grandmother was not the only one whom had a type of cancer in my family. My aunt died at around 29 years old from cancer during her chemo treatments. One of the main reasons I chose not to go with chemo, other reason is because at age 29 my cancer would not have been affected by chemo treatment. The doctors still do not know why I had four different types of cancer cells within the cancer cluster membrane in my chest. I am just praying it doesn't come back in some other form and in another portion of my body. I mean now that the breasts are gone, I just hope I can get my reconstruction after weight loss. (Working on the weight loss is harder than it looks with my health history)
Although this cancer has come into my life, or when it does to any other person it changes one's perspective and makes you feel empowered in a way. This breast cancer makes me want to make changes and make a difference, not just in my own life but my children's and possibly someone else's life as well.
Making Change: Maybe this will open someone's eyes to see that cancer is not a death sentence but more of an opportunity to step up and take action. If my life experiences have taught me anything is to make a difference in others lives, that would be wonderful.
On another note: I have a theory that cancer is a predetermined gene in our bodies that "shows it's head" when it wishes to. I mean seriously no one just "gets cancer" it's not a virus. It is already in the body. Now we have to find that "gene" and destroy it. Some people are more susceptible to the disease than others.
Thank you: I want to say thank you to all the supporting people in my life, I want to say thank you to all those struggling with this disease too. You ladies (and gentlemen) are my heroes. I also want to say all you have to do is message me I will be there, going through this is a hard road but never has to be walked alone.
Thank you so much for reading about me in my blog. Look forward to your comments and please enjoy more reads from me.
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